Why am I doing this?

I don't mean just the student teaching thing - which has me more irritated than anxious at the moment. I mean why the hell am I in Utah? Did I go back to school because I wanted to or because everyone I knew was getting a grad degree? Mind you, up until now the MAED program has been pretty enjoyable...

I just feel like I lost control of my own life in the last few years and I'm living someone else's.